Dear Kevon, although I knew this day was coming, I was still surprised-not to mention happy-at the news last week that the San Fernando Magistrates Court set you free on January 25. Your story has always haunted me and made me question our justice system. Looking back on the 15 months we spent together in my CXC English language class, I recall how you transformed from a quiet, guarded teenager to an outspoken, open, smiling young man. On the first day of class, you wrote very little about yourself, but I soon realised that you possessed an amazing amount of perseverance. When my CXC English class of 30 students in the Youth Training Centre (YTC) ended up to be a class of eight, you were among the final group because you came to class religiously. We both knew that you would not be taking the English language exam last June, but that didn't matter to you. You just wanted to be in that English class.
"English was one of my favourite subjects in school," you wrote, "and I didn't get to do it because I was locked up." The circumstances surrounding the day that you were arrested would have made most people angry and bitter, but you have a penchant for transcending negativity, and you always make the most of your situation. Inside YTC, you played football and pan. You participated in every programme you could, and you never gave up coming to English class. You were a diligent student who grew confident and expressive. I admired your commitment to everything you tackled. For me, one of your biggest accomplishments was that you learned to love reading. VS Naipaul's Miguel Street and Kalisha Buchanon's Upstate, a novel about a teenage boy trying to maintain ties with his family and girlfriend while he was in prison, were two of your favourite books.
One class when everyone wrote descriptive essays, you showed me an essay you wrote about me saying how I was more than a teacher. "You are always caring. You are like a mother to us," you wrote, "and we appreciate that." You spoke about your own mother with the utmost respect, and nothing seemed to excite you more than a visit from her. "My mother worked very hard to keep her children from getting in trouble," you said. "She always instilled values in us: Do good. Go to school. Work hard." Last night, I came across a letter I wrote to my English class after I finished reading A Big Little Life: A Memoir of a Joyful Dog, Trixie. I included these thoughts from the author, Dean Koontz: "This world is infinitely layered and mysterious. Every day of our lives, we see far more than we can comprehend. We want a simple world, but we live in one that is magnificently complex.
"Rather than acknowledge the exquisite roundness of creation, we take it in thin slices, and we view each slice through tinted, distorting lenses that further diminish its beauty and obscure truths that await recognition. Complexity implies meaning, and we are afraid of meaning. "The life of a seamstress is no smaller than the life of a queen, the life of a child with Down syndrome no less filled with promise than the life of a philosopher, because the only significant measure of your life is the positive effect you have on others, either by conscious acts of will or by unconscious example." As you re-enter the real world, I hope you will remember that letter. Be kind. Be good. Continue your studies and don't stop playing football. Search for your purpose in life. Surround yourself with true friends-honest young men who work hard to achieve their goals. A friend can only be a person who will add something positive to your life.
Never allow anyone or anything to disillusion you. When times get tough, remember you have always been a survivor. More importantly, when times were tough, you found a way to move forward in your life. I know that those lessons from A Big Little Life came to my mind when I decided to write this letter to you because of what you wrote for me on the first day of class when I asked which animal you would choose to be in life. You wrote, "I would choose to be a dog because of its freedom." You are free now. Make the most of your life. In my heart I feel that you are destined to do great things because I have seen you demonstrate amazing compassion. Find someone to give hope to you in your community like you used to help the new lads, especially the very young ones, who came to YTC. I will miss you in class, Kevon. I know I will keep looking at that empty chair in our classroom and imagine when you sat there, but I am happy that you are beginning this new chapter in your life. My life is so much richer because you were one of my students. I will never forget you.
Sincerely,
Mrs Jacob
• Next week: As promised, the boys tackle a poetry class. And coming soon: The surprising and shocking results of the CXC English language exam
