There is no point pretending. Defeats and heavy blows are never good for any football nation. They are never good for a brand, a reputation or the image you are trying to rebuild.
And right now, Trinidad and Tobago football is in that exact phase.
It is a period where the game for us is trying to restore trust, restore belief and convince supporters that there is a genuine plan. It is also about convincing the outside world that you are serious again.
International football is not played in a vacuum. Federations, agencies, promoters, clubs, partners. They assess whether it is worth inviting you or taking up an invitation you may extend. They negotiate match fees, travel arrangements, accommodation and commercial terms based on what they think your value is. They also decide, consciously or not, how much respect they give you. And aside from that, there are also the players who are watching.
So yes, losing games, especially heavily, carries consequences. We understand that but there is another side to the argument.
Why travel halfway across the world to play Russia without a full-strength squad? Why take on another difficult assignment after a bruising night against South Korea? Because sometimes the result is only one part of the exercise.
For head coach Derek King and his staff, these matches are as much about evaluation as they are about competition. They are opportunities to find out who can cope, who can adapt and who has the mentality to survive at the international level. Not everyone will always agree with squad selection and schedules.
A national team coach does not simply pick the best players. He must identify the players who can handle international football. That means dealing with things supporters rarely see. Long flights, different cultures, new environments, complex visa procedures, airport delays, and sleeping patterns completely turned upside down.
The T&T squad left home on Thursday at 4.30 pm and arrived in Moscow some 25 hours later via New York and Istanbul. Midnight hotel check-in. The sun rising again before 3.30 in the morning. Bodies and minds trying to adjust before another flight to Kaliningrad and then preparing to face the Russians.
Those experiences matter. They are part of becoming an international footballer.
I often think back to the road leading to Germany 2006. People remember the qualification campaign, the Bahrain playoff and the celebrations. They often forget the difficult nights and days that helped shape that team.
In the build-up going back to 2003, T&T lost 4-1 to Scotland. There were defeats against South Africa, Venezuela, Thailand, Northern Ireland, Egypt and Morocco. There was another 4-1 loss away to Guatemala. The squad travelled to Seoul to face South Korea. Those results did not exactly fill the country with confidence.
But what they did was expose players and staff to the demands of international football. They learned how to travel together, prepare together and recover together. They discovered who could perform away from home and who could deal with pressure.
By the middle of 2005, Leo Beenhakker and his staff had assembled a group with the capacity and resilience to qualify for a FIFA World Cup. That did not happen by accident. It was built through experiences, some good and some very uncomfortable.
In fact, while we were in Utah, I found myself speaking with two former national players who were part of that 2006 journey. I mentioned to them that the entire South Korea Football Association set-up at the BYU South Field in Provo reminded me so much of our own World Cup base camp at the Sportanlage "In der Ahe" in Rottenberg.
It was not necessarily the size of the venue, but the atmosphere around it. The training facility. The dedicated media hub for journalists. The areas set aside for supporters. The controlled environment where a team can prepare properly for elite competition. It had that unmistakable feeling of a World Cup preparation base. We had those things in Germany.
For the current generation of T&T players, and indeed the staff, simply being exposed to environments like that can only be beneficial. They begin to understand what elite international football looks and feels like long before they actually step onto the field.
Among the current travelling party, only myself, team manager Oba Gulston and newly-appointed assistant coach Densill Theobald remain from that historic 2006 World Cup group. King and Hutson Charles are well-travelled as ex-players and members of previous staffs.
Perhaps that is why moments like these resonate a little differently with us. We know what those experiences eventually led to.
This current T&T squad is not the finished product. Several established overseas professionals are absent. Some have club commitments, others have been excused. That opens the door for younger players.
And if there is one positive to come from difficult trips like Utah and now Russia, it is that these young men are being exposed to football at a level many have never experienced before. They are learning what it takes. They are discovering whether they belong or whether they need to turn and come again. They are testing themselves against better opposition, in unfamiliar surroundings, thousands of miles from home.
Not all of them will make it. Some will discover the level is simply too high. Others will return stronger, more confident and better equipped for the next challenge. That is the hidden value of these tours.
Football supporters are entitled to judge results. Results matter and they always will. But development is not always visible on the final scoreboard. Sometimes it is found in a player handling his first 20-hour journey. Sometimes it is learning to recover after a difficult night. Sometimes it is understanding what it means to represent your country in places you never imagined you would visit.
Years from now, if this generation achieves something meaningful, they may well look back at long nights in airports, delayed flights, strange hotel rooms and difficult matches in Utah and Russia as the moments that helped prepare them.
The scorelines may eventually fade but the lessons rarely do.
